new year's resolution: start posting again in my xanga....

so i'm back in the burg, had my first week of school, and of course our first party last night. i'm really torn because i'm so freak'n glad to be back; taking classes, seeing my friends, eating at the commons... but at the same time i feel like i'm such a bajigady person right now. i don't feel as strong as i used to be. so i can't tell if its because there's all kinds of new things going on in my life, or if i just can't handle the things that i once could. >sigh<

i feel like i need a vacation. just to turn off for a while. for four weeks i was back in new orleans, and there were only three days that i didn't have people to entertain. and its not like i had 'entertain' anyone, but i couldn't not 'be kevyn.' and on top of it all, i'm just so alone. granted, my group of friends are off the chain amazing, and we're so incredibly close; i'm just starved of affection, and that's not something my friends can give me, right? so i guess i'm purposely making myself vulnerable to others, though i know they aren't what i need.... damnn i'm starting to ramble, and i just quit.

off to another fun filled evening at julien's. perhaps tonight i won't get drunk and get all emotional... or perhaps not, hehehe...